Years have passed, time spent, people leave. There are things in life that we do not have power to stop and beyond our capabilities to fix what has been ruined. After being hurt and dwelled with the pain for so long, you still can’t stop from seeing a vision of what happened in the past. There is a part of you that hasn’t let go of it. Scars are there, tears will still rolled down from your cheeks and questions pop out from your head, but what could be different? Perhaps, this time there will be answers and reasons why it happened, revealed. Although, there is no assurance that it will make you contented nor happy. I guess one thing is for sure, that you will be thankful that you are still standing and given the chance to live once more.
First time… again!
Yesterday, we just finished setting up my blog migrated here in WP. I’m still trying to get the hang of these new stuff. And honestly, I’m getting a headache! For some reason, I’m thinking of getting it back the way it used to. I can’t even find how I can change the font… Waahh! Hopefully, I will get this figured out within the next few days… Good luck to me!
Change… It’s here to stay!
There is what they say change, the only constant here in this world. We cannot avoid it, everyone and everything is affected by this. It is what pulls us out from our comfort zone. It may be good or bad, some may like it and some may not. Change may teach us or defeat us. It sometimes pushes us to do our best or leave us behind and become casualties. It tests one’s own strength, gauge our tolerance and if we can overcome new challenges that we’ll come across. Uncomfortable as it may seem, we are all going to face it. We just have to look at it as if we are looking for a better place or a happy place where we can speed of time, have more fun and at the end of the day we would realize that we are different and complete.
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Why?
Why are you always saying that I am mad even if I’m not? Why as if you know me better than myself? Can you just tell me why are you doing this to me? Why is it that everything I do, you have something to say? Have I done something wrong? I feel like I’m a prisoner that every action I make I should consult or be given permission first, does this include the air I breathe? It adds up to my stress if you only knew what I am going through right now, I just hope that you would really cut it off! 
Will You Still Love Me Even If I'm Not Perfect?
As I was browsing the Internet last night and checking updates from my blogger friends, I came across this heart felt post from Joy of Itakeoffthemask
Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect? Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I’d let you down?
For though I yearn to take care of you as I should, though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades, my knees tremble this very moment that you hold me in your arms.
Shall I kiss you? Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit knowing that I have my darkness, knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness that is in me?
Sometimes I’d be silent and I might bore you. I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that’s enshrouding me. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me. I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.
Sometimes I’d get moody and I might not enjoy the things you’d like us to do together. Sometimes I’d lose my temper and I’d no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today. Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say things I don’t really mean. Sometimes I’d talk too much that I might drive you away.
Sometimes I’d get touchy and I’d get easily hurt. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways. I’d demand things I shouldn’t, I’d say thing I shouldn’t say. And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause you the most pain.
If you will love me I cannot promise you that I will not hurt you. I cannot promise you that I will not make you cry and that I’ll never break your heart. But if you will love me, I will bare my whole self naked before you, and I will reveal to you my soul. If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love, not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see. If you will love me, you can be certain that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me, and I in turn will love you with all of me, with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my spirit, with all my flaws and beauty, and with all my very heart.
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It Just Clashed!
We watched Clash of the Titans last night after work and got disappointed with it. First of all, I think there is no need for it to be on 3D because it looks clearer without the glasses. Also, in the story Perseus was a son of Zeus but in the Lightning Thief he is a son Poseidon so what is it really? Do you really know Greek Mythology? As if they are saying that the later is a false story created just to have a movie, HAHAHA! Anyways, I like Sam Worthington for the role, for me he always suits that kind of manly character. I remembered watching AVATAR although he is not the one really running and swinging on trees there but he is good there. Enough with all the comparing now, I just wish that there have been more to it because it didn’t make my heart pounding on excitement.
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Weekend Get Away!
Lenten season just passed and of course after holidays back to work again tomorrow. I had a great time with my family I just wish my brother was here so he could have joined us. We went to church last Friday and went swimming today. We left the house around almost 8 this morning and arrived at Subic almost 10:30 am, we took the SCTEX, I would say that the fee is all worth it, no bumps during the ride and the wind is refreshing, so we had some grocery at the Duty Free because we didn’t pack lunch, this outing was unplanned. So we bought a couple of canned goods and breads, chips and sodas as well as some fruits. HAHAHA! We were sort of on a diet… We scout first for the resort and decided to go to White Rock, they say that it’s expensive well, my mom thinks that it’s worth it because the other resorts we look at was crowded and the cottages are far from the beach. We were charged 500 pesos per head and the table was around 2000 or more I think… So everyone is excited specially my nieces, if I’m not mistaken the last time we went swimming as in the whole family was 10 years ago… HAHAHA! They all went ahead to dip into the salty water even though it was tremendously HOT! Sadly, I didn’t get to swim because of personal reasons… HEHEHE! I just went sun bathing and walked for a bit on the sand while looking after our stuff. The kids really loved it specially, when they also went into the pool. There’s a man-made wave I think that’s what they’re after, they get to run to the water not afraid that they can’t reach the bottom because they can see what’s underneath so they know nothing or no one is going to pull their feet unlike in the ocean aside from the fact that they cannot really go too far, they get to have sands on their feet which makes them uncomfortable specially my youngest niece, she always makes her mom wash her feet and asks her dad to carry her… Weird kid! HAHAHA! We decided to go home almost 7pm already and supposedly it will take us 2 or 2.5 hours to arrived in Manila since we took the SCTEX again but unfortunately when we arrived at NLEX the traffic went really slow and we saw that there are 7 vehicles bumped into each other, combination of cars, provincial buses, mini vans, and normal size vans… I really can’t believe it that a road that wide they still get to have that kind of accident (well, that’s why you call it accident, duh! Sorry I’m sleepy already) anyway, we arrived home 10 minutes before 11pm and had some normal food as dinner and just took a bath to freshen up, wrote this and about to sleep. All in all it was a relaxing day for me away from the city. I just hope that it will happen again soon!
Rebuked…
I actually don’t know where to start here but I just wanted to pour out my feelings. I’m unsure whether this is right or wrong, normal or not but for some reason I feel sad and makes me re-evaluate myself if what else is missing? Or what have I done? Again I agree to the saying that “You cannot please everybody!” why? Well, because I get this commentary from a friend that it seems that I’m always not in a good mood, gets irritated fast or would burst with anger which honestly, shocked me! I am now asking myself questions while I’m doing this post and even getting opinions from other friends and for them they said that I’m fine and that they are use to how I really act when I am with them, because that is me! Who am I? How do I act? I know you would ask, I’m a happy person, love to have chats and laugh with friends and I would say that the tone and volume well, I would admit higher than normal but that doesn’t mean that I get angry or irritated really fast because it’s normal for me and I don’t want to be asked to repeat what I am saying over and over so I guess I make sure that I enunciate the words and explain what’s been happening on a tone that I won’t sound like a cat purring. *sigh* it makes me feel that I am a bad person with those kind of comments and saddens me because as I was judged of my personality. It’s just hard to explain to everyone that this is how my face looks like, that I am not angry or anything because they’ve assumed and I no longer have anything to say just to convince them that what they think is wrong because “it’s their opinion of me” I cannot dictate what they should’ve and should’ve not however, it pains me and made me cry for I never intend to offend anybody but I am not perfect, incidents may happen that I’m unaware of. Maybe I was just hoping or expecting that a friend would be the first to understand and would defend me from others who think that way and not the first to condemn me.
Vocabulary Lesson 6
It’s been a long time that we have our lessons… So here are more of new words to learn
Weird = Aneh
Crazy = Gila
Stupid = Bodoh
Hard = Sukar
Difficult = Sulit
Earthquake = Gempa
Rain = Hujan
Summer = Musim panas
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The Unexpected…
After the holidays, there are quite a bunch of things happened that I could say unexpected in terms of professional aspects. I am now working for a different and new company which I feel really blessed that the New Year has started well for me. I’m in still in the same line of work but much better opportunities are in store for us. I feel both happiness and sadness with this sudden decision but I know that this will do me well. I hope that my blog mates will continue to follow me and visit my site even though I don’t update that much, the more now that I am concentrating in learning new things for my job. I will try my best to post more and hopefully pictures as well. I’m really happy and excited as I embark this new journey of my life.
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