I’ve been thinking lately about what happened to my life, reflecting of what are the things that I’ve done or should’ve done. Do I have some regrets? Should I be regretful? So much has happened and I do believe whatever it is that I would feel about everything I cannot undo the wrong. I could only move forward and be sure that in any decision I make from now on, I should be thorough. There are moments when any of us would wish that we have powers, wherein we can learn of the things that will happen just like in Early Edition so we can stop bad things from happening or be Hiro Nakamura of Heroes that can go back in time if things went wrong in the present. However, if that is how we are then maybe we would not learn to trust and believe in the Lord. That He is the only One we could count on and can help us. This may sound preachy nevertheless I am still saying that we should be more appreciative of everything or for what we have because we will not be savoring these moments if His’ son’s life was not sacrificed. I just felt that I need to let these all out, as I am having mixed emotions to what I’m going through. This road is really difficult to surpass, I am losing hope at times but always managed to keep up with the challenges.
Uncontrollable…
Years have passed, time spent, people leave. There are things in life that we do not have power to stop and beyond our capabilities to fix what has been ruined. After being hurt and dwelled with the pain for so long, you still can’t stop from seeing a vision of what happened in the past. There is a part of you that hasn’t let go of it. Scars are there, tears will still rolled down from your cheeks and questions pop out from your head, but what could be different? Perhaps, this time there will be answers and reasons why it happened, revealed. Although, there is no assurance that it will make you contented nor happy. I guess one thing is for sure, that you will be thankful that you are still standing and given the chance to live once more.
First time… again!
Yesterday, we just finished setting up my blog migrated here in WP. I’m still trying to get the hang of these new stuff. And honestly, I’m getting a headache! For some reason, I’m thinking of getting it back the way it used to. I can’t even find how I can change the font… Waahh! Hopefully, I will get this figured out within the next few days… Good luck to me!
Change… It’s here to stay!
There is what they say change, the only constant here in this world. We cannot avoid it, everyone and everything is affected by this. It is what pulls us out from our comfort zone. It may be good or bad, some may like it and some may not. Change may teach us or defeat us. It sometimes pushes us to do our best or leave us behind and become casualties. It tests one’s own strength, gauge our tolerance and if we can overcome new challenges that we’ll come across. Uncomfortable as it may seem, we are all going to face it. We just have to look at it as if we are looking for a better place or a happy place where we can speed of time, have more fun and at the end of the day we would realize that we are different and complete.
Why?
Why are you always saying that I am mad even if I’m not? Why as if you know me better than myself? Can you just tell me why are you doing this to me? Why is it that everything I do, you have something to say? Have I done something wrong? I feel like I’m a prisoner that every action I make I should consult or be given permission first, does this include the air I breathe? It adds up to my stress if you only knew what I am going through right now, I just hope that you would really cut it off! 
Will You Still Love Me Even If I’m Not Perfect?
As I was browsing the Internet last night and checking updates from my blogger friends, I came across this heart felt post from Joy of itakeoffthemask.com
Will you still love me even if I’m not perfect? Will you still love me even if I’m not the kind of person you wished I were? Will you still look into my eyes with warmth even if you saw my shadows? Will you still hold my hand even if you knew there will be times I’d let you down?
For though I yearn to take care of you as I should, though I desire to love you with a love that never falters and fades, my knees tremble this very moment that you hold me in your arms.
Shall I kiss you? Shall I hold your hand and bask in the light of your spirit knowing that I have my darkness, knowing there will be times that the light of my love will sometimes be overshadowed by the darkness that is in me?
Sometimes I’d be silent and I might bore you. I may not laugh at your jokes, and you may not understand the spell that’s enshrouding me. Sometimes I’d get troubled and I’d fail to put into words what the hell it is that troubles me. I wouldn’t be good company then, and I couldn’t make you smile.
Sometimes I’d get moody and I might not enjoy the things you’d like us to do together. Sometimes I’d lose my temper and I’d no longer act like the fine person who stands before you today. Sometimes I’d get jealous and I might say things I don’t really mean. Sometimes I’d talk too much that I might drive you away.
Sometimes I’d get touchy and I’d get easily hurt. And no matter how mature I try to be, at times I’d act in childish ways. I’d demand things I shouldn’t, I’d say thing I shouldn’t say. And no matter how much I desire to protect you and make you happy, sometimes I’d be the one who’d cause you the most pain.
If you will love me I cannot promise you that I will not hurt you. I cannot promise you that I will not make you cry and that I’ll never break your heart. But if you will love me, I will bare my whole self naked before you, and I will reveal to you my soul. If you will love me, you can be certain that it is I that you will love, not a mask that fools you and gives you only what your eyes desire to see. If you will love me, you can be certain that you will love the depths of me, all of me that is in me, and I in turn will love you with all of me, with all my soul, with all my mind, with all my spirit, with all my flaws and beauty, and with all my very heart.
It Just Clashed!
We watched Clash of the Titans last night after work and got disappointed with it. First of all, I think there is no need for it to be on 3D because it looks clearer without the glasses. Also, in the story Perseus was a son of Zeus but in the Lightning Thief he is a son Poseidon so what is it really? Do you really know Greek Mythology? As if they are saying that the later is a false story created just to have a movie, HAHAHA! Anyways, I like Sam Worthington for the role, for me he always suits that kind of manly character. I remembered watching AVATAR although he is not the one really running and swinging on trees there but he is good there. Enough with all the comparing now, I just wish that there have been more to it because it didn’t make my heart pounding on excitement.
Weekend Get Away!
Rebuked…
Vocabulary Lesson 6
It’s been a long time that we have our lessons… So here are more of new words to learn
Weird = Aneh
Crazy = Gila
Stupid = Bodoh
Hard = Sukar
Difficult = Sulit
Earthquake = Gempa
Rain = Hujan
Summer = Musim panas
